Friday, July 17, 2009

3 Piece Special in my Shop

Twirl Skirt Top and Headband $25, Christmas, Halloween, Back to School,,,tons of prints!


So once again its FingerPrint Friday where we share how God has touched our lives during the week, anyone can take part go to here and sign up ..Thanks Beckie!

There is a song by Steven Curtis Chapman that says:
I can see the fingerprints of god
When I look at you
I can see the fingerprints of god
And I know its true
You're a masterpiece
That all creation quietly applauds
And you're covered with the fingerprints of god
So look around you and see where YOU can see God's fingerprints. Is it in nature? Kids? Animals? Where do you see them?

Well, for me this week, it was in a special friend, thanks so much Theresa:)
And thru my dark periods in life, I have been able to find strength and God has always sent me signs. Once about 11 years ago after the 1st split with my husband I was very distraught. I took my dog out for a walk and looked down and there in the middle of this busy city street was this piece of marble with these very special words. It was really a surprise to look down and have this thing practically sitting on my foot. I can't remember now why those words were so important to whatever was going on but I guess it doesn't really matter, it was something special.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Diary Entry 3......Testimony

So ..I hope I don't become known as the custom boutique designer who is out of her mind...but I feel the need to keep an outward diary of this process. Because I am at a breaking point. I can no longer go on living like this....years and years of self torture. My dd has been away for 2 weeks and that is when I get a true reading on my state of mind. Geez this is like GingerLouise Clothing meets the dark side of the moon. You know the designer I mean...she makes those pretty clothes but then every once in a while there are these crazy posts on her blog.

Well my life has become so small I barely left the house during the last 2 weeks,I should have had my whole line completed but I just sat and sat and obsessed and obsessed some more. And looked at other peoples work and thought how good there things were and how bad mine were. Even though I know this isn't true, I have been in business for a very long time and have had these thoughts for the same amount of time.
And my shortcomings, the things I am so aware of now, the things that stop me from becoming the person I want to be, these horrible jealousys and fears. Jealousy mainly, its so bad right now living like this I don't care if the whole world knows. I don't want this anymore. Its taken over my life whether its about my dd and her world or my business. I want God to take it from me and heal me and bring light to where there is so much darkness. I cannot take feeling this bad anymore. Please God, help me.

I also want to be clear that this is something I can't control--i know it sounds petty with all the problems people face in this life and it is--

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Halloween in my sHop!