Sunday, August 23, 2009

Dear Diary...A Testimony

A strange thing happened. Its easy to forgive when a person who has harmed you stops harming you. But when the wrong doer keeps doing wrong and getting away with it, its much harder to forgive and turn it over and let it go. Last week the anger about a certain situation was eating me up. I know I am powerless to change this situation. This person seems to be above the law. Anyway, at the bottom again with this ongoing saga, I did what I have been told to do by many a book, religion and step program. Pray for the person you resent. Whenever a bad thought about the person comes into your head replace it with a prayer. So I tried this again last week but a little more sincerly. And, the result, a surprise to me. Yesterday heavy on my heart was clarity about a wrong I had done this person. Yuk, thats not what I wanted to happen. I don't owe him an apology my 1 wrong to his 500. Well here it sits now in complete truth. I have to pray for the integrity to do the right thing.

5 comments:

Not So Glamorous Housewife said...

I had never heard to replace the bad thought with a prayer. I'm going to try it.

shan said...

Wow. That's heavy. That's a beautiful thing though, I've heard to do that and honestly, I question if I'm that good a person. I need to try... Thanks for the post:)

the monkey's mama said...

Thank you for being so real and posting again about your testimony. I'm inspired by the choices to live intently and rightly before our God!

Robynn's Ravings said...

Oh, there's so much here. I look forward to hearing how you resolved this. Thank you for your vulnerability.

GingerLouise Clothing said...

I made my apology and it was freeing I wanted to start making amends for all wrongs!